happiness. Happiness is that feeling that comes over you when you know life is good and you can’t help but smile. It’s the opposite of sadness. Happiness is a sense of well-being, joy, or contentment. When people are successful, or safe, or lucky, they feel happiness.
It has been an emotional couple of days and a roller coaster for dealing with new things with Little man. We truly never know what a day may hold and as we go to sleep each night we ask for more wisdom and grace for the new day. Each day we are learning more and more about this little guy and learning more and more how we can improve as parents for him.
He told us through sobbing and tears on Tuesday night “that we have made him too happy”. I can’t even begin to imagine a 5 year old thinking that he doesn’t deserve to be happy, that he doesn’t deserve love, care, respect and fun things. Or maybe he knows in his heart he is becoming completely attached to us and he is afraid that he will have to leave? Again, I just can’t imagine a 5 year old having to think about these things.
Hearing this just makes my heart break for all the other children that have those similar feelings because they haven’t been able to experience love and care like they deserve. We told him that he has made us very happy also and there is nothing wrong with being happy.
Is there someone’s life you can bring happiness to today? Do it! You won’t regret it, I promise.
This word has taken on a whole new meaning in the last 5 days. It has made me think how I really love and look at people.
Do I love unconditionally? Truly? or do I just think I do? Do I “expect” things from others and in return I will “love” or “like” them?
We feel like we have done everything possible to love our little guy and show him we truly love him, not just with material things but with things like attention, food, patience etc. but on Saturday we experienced extreme push back on that love, no doubt testing us to see if we would still love him, still take care of him, still give him a home and a bed to sleep in, still feed him even if he disobeyed, even if he slammed doors, even if he called us names, even if he told us NO! 100x, he is trying to find out if we will love him UNCONDITIONALLY. Ryan and I have prayed for patience and wisdom and so many of you and others are praying daily for us as well and it is only with those prayers that the Lord has carried us through two of the most trying days. I said to Ryan it is so hard to see him being so defiant when we have shown him nothing but love, but I am sure in his little mind it makes complete sense!
But on the bright side…this morning he woke up (early 6:15) and came down and saw me and wrapped his arms around my legs. I walked over to the couch with him and held him and he just laid there with his head on my shoulder and then talked and talked and talked, kissed me, hugged me and was completely different today than he was on Saturday. It seemed he was completely content that this was home!
We were told to be prepared to experience the high’s and the low’s but to hear it and then to experience it; is very very different!
Thank you so much to those that are lifting us up in prayer and for all the encouragement. We know without a doubt that he is in our home for a reason and we will love him no matter what!