So tonite at 4 p.m. we will become parents for the first time!!!! That is hard say, let alone write. Excited, nervous, anxious, excited, unknown, excited (oh wait, did I say that already)…yes there are many words to describe the feelings we have right now but one thing we do know for sure is that we are so BLESSED!
Last Thursday we received a phone call with our first referral…less than one week after we were approved. Ryan and I talked about the situation and said “YES”. So after many phone calls, emails and even more interviews and making final preparations for our home study we will meet our son tonite.
We heard many times during our pre-service training that this process is an emotional roller coaster and we have already experienced that for sure. But each day (and many times throughout the days) we just prayed for God’s will, we prayed for peace and wisdom to know how to proceed and God answers those prayers in a big way.
When we were called with the referral late Thursday afternoon we were told we might need to go pick him up that night…we were ready! Then several hours later we were told no, but they would be in contact tomorrow with more information and details…so we didn’t know if that meant we would be picking him up or what the situation might be. Friday came and we were told that they decided to review several other families profiles and they would make a decision…okay, we would wait (we knew all along that if he was to come to our home God would work it out). Friday afternoon we were told that the county wanted to meet Ryan and I in person and interview us…sure! Monday we found out that the interview would be Tuesday at 1:30…we weren’t sure what this would be like. Tuesday we drive out of the county into new territory and we for the first time are in a Children and Youth Center to meet a caseworker and as we sat there and waited I was just reminded how absolutely blessed I am!!!!
After an hour and a half interview (which wasn’t scary at all) and finding out more about this little guy that needed a home we took some time and talked to the representative from our agency and we said YES again to this little boy. Yes to the unknown, Yes to being parents to an adorable blond hair little guy, Yes to loving this boy with all of our hearts no matter how long he is in our home.
So last night on the way home we stopped at Walmart and grabbed a couple of things that we thought he would need and Ryan had fun trying to find the things that we needed in superhero themes (who ever knew that they made superman toothbrushes?).
We know that our lives will be forever and completely changed with a child in our home and last night we talked about how different things will be from now on, but we have definitely learned this whole process isn’t about us but about these children who need love, care and attention and if we can help them and minister to them (ever if just for a short time) than that is what we will do.
Pray for us!